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Piecing.

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Stitched I started work on a new quilt this week. Light colored and relatively small, it will be a departure from the other two quilts I’ve made in the past 24 months.

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#006: Border Detail
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Quilt #006.

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“The act of sewing is a process of emotional repair.” - Lousie Bourgeois

#006: Whole
I started quilting because it is an art form heavily reliant on process, patience and time. I don’t keep track of how much time a particular project takes me to complete because the time put into a quilt doesn’t matter. To me, I loose myself in that process, so wide reaching and so utterly consuming. Before starting a quilt, I daydream about grids, fabric, patterns. I disappear into those thoughts, work through my half-formed ideas and come out the other end with a nagging desire to make.

#006: Signature
This quilt came out of this mess, as a wedding gift for a dear friend. I find inspiration for my quilts in different parts of the world. I am heavily inspired by minimalism, taken by it’s emphasis on the beauty of materials. I take the centralized, simple, square piecing from 19th century Amish quilts of Lancaster County, PA. The stitching and it’s motif is a technique called a sashiko, a decorative, reinforcement running stitch from Japan. The colors, indigo and white, are also traditional for sashiko.

#006: Corner Detail
This quilt is the first quilt I’ve made that was actually planned and thought about. It’s been done and with it’s owner for the better part of a year now. I have moved onto another quilt, one with less contrast, smaller stitches and less mistakes. That quilt is for A. and I, a gift to us to sleep under. Even though I’m still doing the tedious work, the hand stitching of a queen sized quilt, I’m day dreaming about fabrics and blocks already, looking forward to repeating the process.

Pap Milking.
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On Loss: William J. Engle

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Father of the Bride

It’s been a over a year since my grandfather, William J. Engle, passed away on February 14, 2013. He was 89 years old. I got caught up in my life before I really had the chance to write anything about his passing. My heart still stung with grief when my mother told me on a phone call on a cold but clear February morning. Two deaths in 6 months was too much for me to handle, too much for me to live with. I wanted to be numb, unaffected and so, I was.

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When I was 6, maybe 7, my parents and I went to Canada, where my grandparents owned a small cabin, pictured above. I was sitting in the kitchen, at the long dining table, eating breakfast. It was cold cereal with milk, probably something that turned the milk a pale pink or purple. I never finished the milk in the bowl after I ate my cereal; I disliked the little bits of cereal floating in the off-color milk. My grandfather gave me, a young child, a hard time about not finishing the milk. He was upset, repeating “She didn’t finish her milk. She should finish her milk.” I vaguely remember being ashamed and my parents being dismissive of his concerns. This interaction feels like a small but important detail that helped define my relationship to him.

I didn’t really know my grandfather very well and I know only the generally understood details of his life. He was a dairyman and milked 40 cows, everyday, twice a day by hand until the early 1980s. He cared for his children, lost both of his wives in his long life. I can conjure up memories of a quiet man from my earliest years. He was quiet, reserved until the end. He didn’t talk too much about his past but enjoyed his present while fishing, boating, hunting, building, fixing, tinkering. I didn’t see him very much in my teenage and adult years, as I was out in the world, away from the town I grew up in. I distanced myself from him because I wasn’t sure how to have a relationship with him. His life and my life felt very different from one another and I had no idea how to connect with him in any meaningful way.

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 I realize now, this far from his death and living a much different life than I was a year ago, that I could’ve actually connected with him had I understood how he spent his life. I know he valued hard work. In the last year of his life, he expressed approval at my interest in agriculture. I would’ve liked to talk with him about his farm, his cows, his work.

I also realize that the one defining interaction that I had with him, regarding unfinished milk, wasn’t really about my personal habit. It was only until recently I understood why he was so bothered by that half a cup of milk poured down the drain that particular July morning. His life was defined by his work and so much of his work was milking cows. He didn’t own a modern dairy and he milked his cows by hand for so long, that half of cup of milk represented to him several minutes of his work day. He was insulted that someone could throw away his time like that.

I understand, finally. Every time I have cold cereal now, I finish the milk in the bowl, without hesitation.